Saturday, October 15, 2011

I have a dream...

We gotta talk...

So I'm having a bit of a hard time with this. I always felt as though I was a beautiful person and I always was told by my family "You're so pretty..........if you'd just lose weight" and I used to hate when people said that but now that I have lost weight, I am wondering if they were right. I guess that's how everyone saw me. All of a sudden I am getting doors held for me by young men, getting hit on at the playground while I am playing with my daughter, I go to get gas and the gas attendant is asking where I'm from and my age half way hanging in my window, I go for a walk on the boardwalk and the maintenance workers are eyeing me up and down, etc.. Yes...it's flattering that these men find me attractive but it's like when I was 250+lbs I was invisible and now all of a sudden that I am the "ideal size", all eyes are on me. It's just one more aspect of this journey that takes getting used to, I suppose.

I'm about to just gain the weight back....

JUST KIDDING!!! lol I would never do that. But I'm just getting it off my chest.


I have a dream...that one day all women, fat or skinny or somewhere in between, will be treated equally.

I have a dream... that all women will find themselves beautiful despite what society says they "should" look like.


I have a dream...that women everywhere will take care of their bodies not because they want men to look at them, but because they want to look at themselves and feel PROUD of what they see, because they will go to the doctor and get a clean bill of health, because they will be able to play with their children in the ways they want to play.

I have a dream...that women will LOVE themselves more than they love anyone else's opinion about themselves.

I have a dream...that my voice will be heard because I have a lot to say and, Lord have mercy, I want to make people feel GOOD about themselves day in and day out.

As always, thank you for reading! FYI: I stayed the same this week at weigh in. Thanks to my fantastic leader I got over my little "bummed" moment. Oh and I am too dag on emotional! I cry all the time at meetings...I don't know how I'm ever going to lead a meeting... I gotta get over that! haha

Have an awesome Saturday!
Krystle

4 comments:

Carbie Girl said...

maybe by the time you lead a meeting you will be all cried out ;) Get it out of your system! Interesting what you said about being "checked out" all the time now.. when i was 169 (years ago) I hated when men would be blatantly bold and stupid sexual things.. it was so intimidating. Rare was it ever actually nice guys just smiling or keeping it at "just checking me out"... it can be flattering when its complimentary but when its just vulgar it can be scary :0/

Sarah from Onmyweightohappiness said...

You sound just like me, all my life I was always told...You have such a pretty face if you only lost weight you could be a model or your so pretty but... You get my drift. Now that Ive lost over 100 lbs its like Im not invisible anymore, I get hit on all the time, treated so much more differently its such a weird thing and sad at the same time. It almost makes me upset and mad at how people are treated when they are over weight. I am still the same person inside I just shed some weight.

One Chicks Journey On Weight Watchers said...

I think you were beautiful then and you are beautiful now! I used to be 12o and hit on constantly but when i was 200 i was invisible now im still partially it does suck but thats how most men are. thats why i am glad me and you got one of the good ones so we dont have to worry that they are going to leave if we gain 5 lbs. ugh i hate artificial ppl

Tara said...

Totally know what you're talking about girlie! Those stares, looks and over-attentive strangers are a little unnerving at times. You are BEAUTIFUL tho!! Soooo proud of you for your amazing weight loss! Such a huge inspiration.

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