We gotta talk...
So I'm having a bit of a hard time with this. I always felt as though I was a beautiful person and I always was told by my family "You're so pretty..........if you'd just lose weight" and I used to hate when people said that but now that I have lost weight, I am wondering if they were right. I guess that's how everyone saw me. All of a sudden I am getting doors held for me by young men, getting hit on at the playground while I am playing with my daughter, I go to get gas and the gas attendant is asking where I'm from and my age half way hanging in my window, I go for a walk on the boardwalk and the maintenance workers are eyeing me up and down, etc.. Yes...it's flattering that these men find me attractive but it's like when I was 250+lbs I was invisible and now all of a sudden that I am the "ideal size", all eyes are on me. It's just one more aspect of this journey that takes getting used to, I suppose.
I'm about to just gain the weight back....
JUST KIDDING!!! lol I would never do that. But I'm just getting it off my chest.
I have a dream...that one day all women, fat or skinny or somewhere in between, will be treated equally.
I have a dream... that all women will find themselves beautiful despite what society says they "should" look like.
I have a dream...that women everywhere will take care of their bodies not because they want men to look at them, but because they want to look at themselves and feel PROUD of what they see, because they will go to the doctor and get a clean bill of health, because they will be able to play with their children in the ways they want to play.
I have a dream...that women will LOVE themselves more than they love anyone else's opinion about themselves.
I have a dream...that my voice will be heard because I have a lot to say and, Lord have mercy, I want to make people feel GOOD about themselves day in and day out.
As always, thank you for reading! FYI: I stayed the same this week at weigh in. Thanks to my fantastic leader I got over my little "bummed" moment. Oh and I am too dag on emotional! I cry all the time at meetings...I don't know how I'm ever going to lead a meeting... I gotta get over that! haha
Have an awesome Saturday!