Saturday, March 9, 2013

A little self reflection

Hey there :)

I haven't really blogged in quite some time...I've done giveaways and guest posts and that sort of thing but I haven't spent time writing a genuine blog in a while.... I think it's time.

I get told often that the reason people enjoy my page is because I keep it real about the struggle .. I've always been 100% transparent when it comes to my journey and always will be. With that being said, I can't count on all my fingers (and maybe even my toes) how many times I have said to myself (and to you guys!) "I over did it tonight" or "I ate too much ______" and kicked myself for it, regretting my decision. I have NEVER been perfect on this journey.. I have slipped up more times than I can count but one thing I have been is CONSISTENT.....not consistent in that every day is great and every day I make all healthy decisions and workout. Not that kind of consistent. I am consistent in that every time I get off track, I get back on. Maybe not the next meal, maybe not even the next day... but I have never just QUIT. I have never said "oh well...messed this up.... might as well just forget it." 

The other night I ate at the buffet... I did okay... not great, not terrible. Last night, as I mentioned on Facebook, I had a little too much pizza.... but as I zipped up that size 4 dress in the dressing room today with room to spare, I had to shake my head and laugh, which led me to this blog.



How many times have I slipped up? How many times have I over eaten? How many times have I missed workouts? Drank too much wine? How many times have I felt negative feelings towards that day's decisions??? .....

Want to know the answer?

I don't know how many times...

what I do know is that I have eaten more healthy foods in the past 2.5 years than I have in my life. I know I've burnt more calories in one workout than I used to burn in any given 6 months of workouts. I know that I am running laps around the old me that sat on the couch.  I know that my good days and my good food decisions have outweighed the bad ones by a long shot..... and while I'm on that topic, I am TIRED of referring to food as "good" and "bad" so this is the last time it's going down like that.

All I am trying to say is that I have kicked myself in the rear end more times than I can count - for WHAT?? ....Not sure the answer to that question but what I do know is that I am now learning to TRUST THE JOURNEY and working on.............. living.

It's not easy. I've been here before and I have a long road ahead of me, I'm sure... but I am tired of feeling bad about myself because of FOOD.... what does food say about the type of person that I am? What does a too full tummy say about how much I love myself or my family or the people around me? What does a missed workout say about my faith in God? What does too many calories or points say about how much I give back to others? What does a little extra dessert say about the kind of mother that I am?

NOT A DAMN THING.

I am Krystle Joy Bailey.
I am mommy. 
I am KJB.
I am Skinny Jeans Dreams.

and I am worthy of being ALL of that and loving ALL of me ALL of the time. No matter what.

the same goes for y o u.

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are amazing and I so needed to hear that. Thank you

Anonymous said...

Thank you.

Anonymous said...

You are a great inspiration. We all need to start feeling worthy

Alicia said...

People not going through this journey couldn't understand, and those who are, feel alone in these feelings. You said it so well.

Unknown said...

Thank you for sharing!

Kathy said...

Your honesty is the best part about your wonderful site~Also love the positivity~Knowing that you are a "real" and not "perfect" person (do they even exist, lol)makes it all the more enduring for us women out here who do struggle with the sames issues~and there are so many of us, in all shapes and sizes, and at different stages in our struggle, who you touch and inspire with your honesty and positivity:226) Thank you so much for sharing your journey and for all of the helpful information and cute posts, lol:)

Mrs. BST said...

I can dig this!! :)

Ve-Ve said...

What Kathy said... plus...awesome, honest sharing. Love it, so inspired, thanks for sharing your journey.

Tamara said...

Thanks for sharing your journey with us. You've really motivated me as well as countless others! Thank you.

Tamara

Anonymous said...

I am new here...you are great and this post is 100% truth! :)

~Ashli

Luza said...

Beautifully written! You are so encouraging and inspiring. And it is precisely because you are so honest. Thank you for that. God bless you for that. Thank you for allowing God to use you to change so many, many lives.

MaryFran said...

Thank you for this post. I've been working toward that kind of attitude myself. Realizing that I've never given up...I slip up but I get back up to my feet and push onward!

Sarah @ The Fat Girl Fighting said...

Your amazing, such a lovely post to read, its nice reminder that we are all human and everyones journey isnt easy.

amybodnar said...

You took the words right out of my mouth. I seem to keep circling the same route these days. Doing 'bad' or getting off track, then getting back on and being 'good'

I keep trying to remind myself that its not good or bad. I am still fighting the fight and ONE day I won't think of EVERY single decision I make regarding my food/fitness.

You're amazing! THANK YOU

Jenna said...

Hi Krystle,

I really enjoyed reading this. I struggle daily with overeating and emotional eating, so it's really comforting to know I'm not alone.

Chasing Joy said...

I'm so glad I visited your blog today. You visited mine long long ago and I was going over past comments visiting people. You are so inspiring. Your progress pictures are amazing. I am struggling and have been for a lot of years now, with my weight. I think I can find a lot of inspiration and helpful info here. Going to find your Facebook page now :-)

Kelly said...

Hey KJB - You are also super inspiring! I love reading your blog and your list of goals and seeing so many crossed off!! I also love this post - it's so important - I think you should make it one of your navigation headings (if i've used the right terminology - i.e. it should be up there with your goals as a file header) because this is SUCH an important point. It took me 10 years to lose 10 pounds because I kept 'starting over' rather than learning from the journey and CONTINUING as you said! When I finally started continuing I discovered 10 things that made losing and maintaining weight easy and after 15 years of doing that I have had the space to reflect and write it down and I have made a weight loss tutorial - basically a short weekly lesson about what I learned (it's FREE) and I'd love it if you checked it out here: www.the10principles.com I love your story and thanks for this brave post re: CONTINUING!!! It's so important and like you said... it's amazing how you can just slip into a dress the next day because you're body has relaxed and just gets rid of the extra calories vs. storing them when you continue! :) Kelly

Naila Shahzadi said...

I really enjoyed reading this. I struggle daily with overeating and emotional eating, so it's really comforting to know I'm not alone and more and more information about exercise and healthy eating from this link http://naturalgreencoffeebean.org/

Charlie said...

Thanks for this post, it's reassuring to hear that someone who has dons so well still has bad days - and (the important part) gets back on track. Yoyr blog LOOKS GREAT.

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Patricia said...

Yes keep on inspiring us and keeping us all motivated. Your posts have really helped me out more than you will ever know :)

Isagenix said...

I find it more inspiring for someone to keep it real and get back at it then to be fake. Good for you! 2 and a half years and still going. Yup. Best to think positive.

Robin Nelson said...

I can see why people would like this blog. I have been reading some posts and you really do tell it like it is and in real time like you were actually talking to us in person. I particularly like this post because it’s all true. I also used to beat myself up about eating something with lots of calories or gaining a couple of pounds. I wanted the weight to just fly off instead of realizing it truly is a journey. I used to mentally beat myself up about falling off the wagon a few times, then I would feel so depressed I would end up on a food bender and have to start all over again to retrain myself not to overeat. I found a really good book that helped me realize why I would beat myself up and actually bring to my consciousness that’s what I was doing and in beating myself to a pulp about food just hindered the weight loss process in the first place. I learned to retrain my brain to make eating and even gaining a few pounds was ok, and learned how to deal with it and not overeat and be happy about it. I am much more satisfied with my efforts now and can carry on with my day to day activity without worrying where the next temptation will be. I don’t have those attacks anymore and my life has been filled with more happiness than before. Weight loss is a crazy journey, but with the right tools it can also be a wonderful one at the same time. Sounds like you have it all planned out and put together well but in case you would like to read the book to it’s called The Thin Woman's Brain: Re-wiring the Brain for Permanent Weight Loss and you can find it on Amazon.com. Or if you know others that may struggle with this issue, they might want to read it.

Ben James said...

Yeah, I have slipped up plenty. A burger meal with three burgers instead of just the one; the whole pizza instead of just a few slices. But I am correcting those mistakes. When I go to Burger King, I order a small meal - I don't order two extra burgers with it. When I order a pizza, I take a few slices out and put them on a plate, then put the rest in the fridge. I can then sit down and eat my meal and feel satisfied, instead of like I ate too much merely because it was right in front of me. A simple mind trick, but it works.

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Stuart said...

I'm sure you inspire many with your words. It's great to hear how 'real" you keep it.
Just thought I would say thanks!

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