It's only fair that I share with you what's going on even in my lowest of times.
I have real issues with food. I don't over eat just because I like food. I didn't get to 250+ pounds just because I LIKED to eat. It's more than that and that is something that I have come to accept. I know some of you see me as this superwoman type person but I am more than meets the eye and I have some real underlying issues that I believe lead to my problems with food. If I am going to be a well rounded healthy person, I have to attack those issues. Which is why I have decided to seek professional counseling to deal with my demons and get to the root of my problems.
I do not want to get overly personal...there are some things I just can't share.. but I will say this: In my mind there is a daily WAR going on and it's not just with "Eat this, not that"....
While I am weak in certain ways, I find strength in being able to recognize that there are things to be dealt with and actively pursuing help. I want to be the best Krystle that I can be for:
2) My daughter
3) My family and friends
4) For you
Please know that I am not psychotic. I'm not suicidal. I'm not anything that should cause worry to anybody who loves me. I am just a real life human with real life problems seeking real life solutions so that I can continue to better myself.
The only reason I am sharing these things on a public forum like this is because from day one I have promised to be open and honest with you about my journey and dealing with things like this are part of my journey.
This too shall pass....
and this will ultimately be a chapter in my book.