We will be victorious!!

I had all intentions of coming here and writing a blog about habits then I realized I already did that not even a month ago (See that blog here) . So not sure where this blog will lead but I'm just gonna let my fingers work.
Lately I have been having a REAL struggle with the Old Krystle. She has been sneaking back up in my life and trying to remind me of how comfortable it is to not have to think about food or working out and just go through life eating and doing as I please. What she tends to forget is how UNcomfortable 250+ pounds is. She keeps trying to get the best of me: knocking me off plan, convincing me that I don't feel like working out, picking up food and putting it in my mouth without tracking it, trying to tell me that I don't want to track forever etc... that B must be in cahoots with the devil - trying to slip me up, trip me up.

I REFUSE.

I REFUSE.

I REFUSE.

to ever be one of those people who you see 5 years after their weight loss and they gained it all back. I refuse!!!!! But I also don't want to have a mental battle every day of my life for the rest of my life. So what do I do about it??

Well, I was reading in WW magazing this morning, David Kirchhoff, the WW CEO's entry. He types a blog about his maintenance journey but in this piece in the magazine he talked about how it took him 9 years to lose his weight and it wasn't until he made things a habit instead of a chore that he was able to find peace and keep his weight off.

At one point, I felt that I was THERE. That this was all a part of me now and I didn't have to put much thought into it. I was wrong. I am not there yet. This is still a struggle for me. Not all the time though. Some days, I do great and I don't have to put much thought into it but other days I just want to stuff my face and sit on the couch and I openly admit that!!

I don't want to struggle like this forever though. I don't want to burn out my mind thinking about points and the scale and drive myself to the point of quitting and giving up. I want to be a healthy, thin, strong, fit person and I want it to just be a part of who I AM.

SO...I am working on creating new habits and breaking old habits and creating the new me that I want to live my life as. Starting with reading Chalene Johnson's book PUSH. I started reading it a while ago and never finished but I am picking it back up and supercharging my life.

One habit at a time: Today started my quest to break my BLT (bites, licks, and tastes) habit. I got through the entire day without a bite, lick, or taste and I tracked everything i put in my mouth. Tomorrow, I have to do it again. I hope that after a couple weeks of being strong with this, that it will become second nature. They say it takes 21 days to create a habit. Here's to 21 days and a LIFETIME dedicated to a better ME!

As I make it very clear, I am not perfect. I am not the perfect Weight Watcher or weight loss person. None of us are. That's why we are all here, doing it together so that we can support one another along the way. Some days will be better than others. Some weeks will be better than others. But each day is a small battle in the war and as long we are willing to fight the next battle, we will win the war. We WILL be victorious!!